I had been dreading the day Ice would leave me since she was a puppy. Dog owners know that our beloved pets just don’t live as long as we do. Yet, I had always comforted myself with the thought that Jack Russells live relatively long for dogs, 15 to 16 years and I had even heard of longer. Ice was only eleven years old when she fell ill one day, throwing up and not eating. I thought she had just eaten something bad. Unfortunately, we got the worst case scenario: it was her kidneys.
She had tests run in March where her kidneys were fine so we thought the problem was acute and after a few days in the animal hospital, she’d be home again. To our painful shock, Chronic Kidney Disease had set in and within days, Ice was deteriorating quickly, not eating and not responding to any of the treatments. It all happened so fast! She threw up one Thursday night and the following Thursday she was put to rest so that she would no longer suffer. Eight days later, I’m still in shock. Ice, the dog you saw in this post and that post is gone forever.
Ice joined my life when she was 10 weeks old and I was almost 21. She’s been my roommate and best friend my entire adult life and I can’t remember what it was like before the jingling of her collar was always in the background. Ice lived in four different apartments with me, screened each date until we found Lon, walked down the aisle as our ring bearer, was undoubtedly Caya’s first word, and she was a true member of our family.
Since last week, food just hasn’t tasted that good to me. I know what to eat when I’m sick and I know what to make for celebrations, but what do you eat when you’re heart broken?
If you would, please consider helping the Humane Society of New York, in Ice’s memory: Ice’s Fund.
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Jessica, I really am so sorry at the loss of Ice. I only met her once, at last year’s great American bake sale when Caya was brand new. She was lovely, and so protective of her baby. I don’t think she got more than a foot away from the stroller, even though the delicious aroma of baked goods surely called to her.
I wish there was something I could say or do to make the heartbreak hurt a little less. Just remember that how much you hurt is directly proportional to how much that someone touched your life, and there’s something in that.
Ice surely knew how much you loved her, just as you knew how much she loved you. My heart is with you, sweets.
I’m so sorry. When I’m sad sometimes I need to feel the sadness before my appetite returns.
Sorry to know that Ice has left your family but the good memories will remain. I too feel the loss of precious pets. And am facing my aging dogs heart troubles as I write. He collapse on hard exertion . Just seeing Ice made me sad. Please keep sharing your love for food and what he may have loved to eat as well. Our dog loves ice cream but it may have contributed to his heart problems.
Nothing tastes good when you are bearing the kind of grief that consumes your being while mourning the loss of a beloved pet. I hope you feel better soon.
Ice knew she was loved by the way you guys took care of her. I hope you guys feel better soon.
Thank you Amber. Caya still asks for Ice every day but she’s still too young to understand anything we’ve told her.
Dee, you’re probably right.
Johanne, Ice loved to eat just about anything. I’m sorry to hear about your dog’s heart problems. I wish we had advanced as much in animal medical science as we have with humans.
Happamamma, sigh* thank you
Thanks Christine. I hope so.
Oh Jessica.. I am so very sorry for your loss. I’m a Jack lover too and Ice sure looks like she was a gorgeous dame.. ::HUGS::
I’m so sorry about your sweet Ice. What a face she had. I know how the loss of a dog leaves a space, a hole in your heart and wish you comfort in remembering better times with that darling pup.
I am sorry to hear the sad news, Jessica. You and your family are in my thoughts and I hope that there are better times ahead.
I came to your site in a bit of a haphazard way but glad it brought me here. I said goodbye to my JRT about 3 years ago. She was 17, and I had her since she was 6months old, but it didn’t make it any easier. As one JRT owner to another I understand. They’re not like other dogs and we’re privileged they chose us to be their owner.
I hope that the memories of what a wonderful companion Ice was will once again bring joy to your day.
Abby, thank you. I always thought she was gorgeous!
Cathy, thank you. I am comforted by all the pictures we have of good times.
Thanks Roxane. I hope you and your family are doing well.
Sara, your comment made me so happy to know that your JRT lived till she was 17. Thank you!
Jessica, We are doing well, thank you. I just made zong zi with my parents yesterday to celebrate Duan wu. We like to use 2 bamboo leaves for each zong zi, and use raw pork, rather than cooked. My daughter wasn’t interested in watching, but someday I’ll teach her to make them.
Perhaps surrounding yourself with good friends will help you through this difficult time.
Jessica, I’m so sorry to hear about your loss. 🙁 What a beautiful dog she was. That final picture of your entire family is so sweet & precious. Glad that Caya had a chance to get to know Ice.
Sorry for you loss, Jessica. Looks like she was a really cute dog. A bit untraditional, bur I eat taco when in mourning.
Roxane, I can’t believe my mom and I didn’t make Zong Zi this year but life has been a little hectic lately.
Jen, thank you. I’m so glad we have lots of pictures to show Caya when she’s older.
Burger NYC, thank you.
hi jessica, i came across you blog randomly – just starting blogging myself (thanks to a grad school project) and will be moving to LIC in about two months. i am a HUGE pet person myself and it is so sad when our furry friends move on. i have an aging shih tzu with a heart murmur, so i know i have to ready myself one day soon. i am so sorry for your loss and i’m sure ice is chasing rainbows and bunnies and getting lots of eat in doggy heaven.
Thanks Jacqline! Welcome to blogging and LIC. Both are wonderful communities.
Hi Jessica, are you feeling better?
When we had to put my dog to sleep, I cried for a week. My family stopped having dogs since then.
I’m feeling down this week though, for relationship reasons, and I just indulge in ice cream everyday.
Mai, I’m feeling much better and I think Caya really distracts me. Thanks for asking! I’m sorry about your dog and I’m sad that you guys have stopped having dogs since then. I’ve heard that before. I’m hoping in time, we’ll get another one when we’re ready. At certain times, ice cream does it for me too! I hope you feel better soon!!
I’m so sorry for your loss. I would eat mochi ice cream, if it helps.
I am so sorry to hear about your sweet puppy. When I received the news that my childhood dog died, it was minutes before I was to meet a friend for dinner during my freshman year of college. Needless to say, I had no appetite, and I continued to be sad for many days afterwards. Our pets are near and dear to us, and in some ways, it’s nice to know that we honor their spirit when we mourn. Ice will always be with you. Eat something chilly for Ice.